Coming Back

I'm on my way back after a long, horrible, hormonal week. Ever had one of those? Where nothing seems right? When everyone is making you crazy? Ash and I have a saying, "When everyone else is obnoxious and annoying you, the problem is probably you." Darn it!

My poor kids saw nothing but grumpy Mom in the blue bathrobe every morning this week. (Today was better though! But I was still in my bathrobe.) I felt so dark, tired and frustrated all the time. It was all I could do to make it through the hour and a half each morning where the girls are up and getting ready. 8:00 a.m. came with a huge sigh of relief when I could watch the front door close, turn on the tv for the boys, and then go back to bed. I definitely needed my "reboot" time!! But then of course, I felt guilty for neglecting the boys, the house and all the other things that need my attention. However, my sleep addiction won out every time.

I had two failed projects this week. I'm hoping to salvage them both. We had a visit from my niece's Flat Stanley. We went down to the waterfront, twice, to take pictures with him, the kids and the sights. Both times the battery on the camera died! I think we got enough pictures between both visits to make an interesting enough journal. I drove all over town looking for a postcard from Port Orchard to send to her class. I came up empty handed. I finally decided to just make one - we do have a new printer afterall - only to discover we needed to replace the ink cartridge - but we did not have one on hand to do so. I finally got the postcard printed and mailed off. whew! This weekend Flat Stanley will write in his journal and get some pictures developed and then we can send him back to UT for another adventure. Poor Brad! He really put up with me on this one!! (And no, Christy, I'm not upset that you sent Stanley to us!! It just didn't go the way I'd envisioned.)

My other project was crocheting a hat. It started out good, I thought. But now it just looks like a big circle of crocheted yarn that is slightly curled on the outside edge. It does not look like a hat. Am I worrying about it too soon? Will it take shape as I keep going? I need to look over the pattern again (for the 50th time) to see if I've missed a step. However, it may be time to unravel the whole thing and start over. :(

Yesterday Ash and I ran away for the day. Actually, we went to the Flower and Garden show over in Seattle. This has been on the calendar for a while and I had been looking forward to it all week as my saving grace. It was so nice to be away from the kids, my house and my all my stress for the day! We had a great time looking at all the plants and different booths. I bought some hanging baskets that I am VERY excited to plant and hang on the front of our house. I bought a watercolor painting that will go PERFECTLY on the bit of wall above the downward stairs. I've been looking for something to hang in that spot for 3 years now. We went to Nordstrom and I found a new pair of black heels. I've been looking for a new pair for over a year and haven't found one that I've liked that fits well. We ate out and took home some yummy cheesecake for ourselves and our hubbies. Aaron gave me the sweetest snuggle when I got home last night. The girls were happy to see me and show me their new puffy vests and high tops. Kyle thanked me again for his shark blanket. Then I got to read several blog updates that my friends had posted. (I love reading blogs.) Yesterday was my day!

I have to thank my awesome neighbor, Mary, who watched the boys for me all day! (And the girls for some of the afternoon.) She was a lifesaver! I don't worry at all when she is watching them and that is such a relief. It's a small token, but she's getting some cheesecake too. :)

So now, I'm sitting here and thinking that perhaps life will go on and perhaps I won't be so dark for the next little while. Aaahh! :)